Adam Luke

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I was reminded of so many cringeworthy things while typing this post

well, my day was going ok, but then i remembered something stupid i said when i was 14

This comic showed up in my feed reader recently. It’s brief, but it holds so much meaning for me! And I know a lot of people can relate. Sometimes it’s just unfortunately hard to forget about all the dumb shit you’ve said and done in your life. And when, for some reason, it gets dragged into your short-term memory, you hate yourself and everything else for that brief moment, grimacing and cursing under your breath (semi-involuntarily!). You know it’s irrational hang onto crappy moments from the past so much, because probably no-one else remembers them so vividly as you, and they’re even less likely to care.

But I can’t help ruminating ok. Nedroid depicts this situation amusingly  too.

Self Improvement

I recently finished another semester of university, which means I have officially completed half of my degree. Yay, or something. Anyway, since I have another few weeks with little in the way of commitments, I feel it’s time for some self improvement.

You see, I want to become “smart” again. When I was younger, I was, pretty much, smarter than everyone else my age, and achieved more academically, without having to do any work. And because of it, I frequently got special privileges, and got to participate in special programs. These days? It seems that everyone has “caught up”, and I’m no longer better than everyone else. It annoys me that it’s possible for other people to beat me in assignments, exams, etc., even when I put in effort, as there’s nothing I can do about it. I hate being second rate. I probably sound like a spoiled brat here, and I’m not going to deny that I am one..!

But. I would like to rise up and regain my status of “super smart”. I don’t know whether this is achievable (I suspect it’s not), or how it is achievable, but as part of my “master plan”, I would like to increase my general knowledge. Certainly, I can hold my own in a game of Trivial Pursuit, but screw that; for me, it’s all about winning. I want to own. For sure, I have areas that I can definitely improve in. History, for instance. Most of my current knowledge about history comes from the Horrible Histories series of books for children, which I used to read. This is fine, but I don’t know whether those are wholly historically accurate, and also I want to read something aimed more at an adult audience. Oh, and something that looks at the history of science and technology should be interesting, rather than the usual people-and-events focus.

Also, I’m not averse to using documentaries to improve my knowledge. In fact, I quite like them (related posts: Dinosaurs, Koyaanisqatsi).

So I plan to go forth and learn. Or, be overwhelmed and give up immediately.

Sleep

I’m still a bit scarce on the ‘net at the moment. I did manage to get through a backlog of assignments and do a decent job on them (maybe) last week, though, and now have nothing due for a little while. So huzzah to that, I suppose. Now I just have to survive for a few more weeks, after which the semester will be over.

Anyway, today’s topic is sleep. I’ve had a problem (although it’s so so much a problem as a feature) recently, in that I’m constantly tired and always want to sleep (or even just lay in bed). Not to hypersomnia levels or anything, but definitely to the point where it’s getting annoying.

I mentioned in a recent blog entry that I don’t understand how some people can stay up all night and get but a few hours sleep. For the past few weeks, I’ve been sleeping for about nine hours each night (and staying in bed for a lot longer). Usually I’d wake up after eight hours, and ideally I’d only need seven or eight per night, but at the moment I’ll be yawning and sleepy all day unless I get the full nine. I don’t know why I’m constantly tired and constantly lying in bed during the middle of the day. Also it’s probably not a Good Thing that the most exciting part of my day is going to bed, and the worst is waking up.

Further, it’s made me rather unproductive. My attitude towards schoolwork always ends up being “Screw it, I’m going to bed and shall deal with the consequences later.”

Oh look, I just wrote an entry whinging about how I “only” get nine hours sleep a night. Obvious non-problem is obvious.

Running

Wow, the comments on my Valentine’s Day entry were really fascinating reads, and I appreciate the effort you guys put into them! Just in case it came across that I hate my family, I’ll clarify that I don’t — in fact they’re generally pretty supportive. We don’t necessarily get along as much as we should, but my parents are generally quite good to me. I feel like an immature teen now, but that’s fine; I am one. I mainly just get the feeling that they don’t understand me, and I’m not really what they (well, my father, anyway) “wanted” , but who really knows.

Also, I’m going to take the fact that I reminded someone of Dexter, as a compliment. And! To anyone who said (500) Days of Summer is good? You are totally right.

So! Today’s topic: I started running today. It wasn’t that fun, but I think I’ll attempt it maybe twice a week. There’s a big park/oval right near my house, so armed with an iPod and earphones, I walked to the park where I alternated between running/jogging and walking for about 20 minutes, whilst sussing out where the drinking fountains were (I found two).

I encountered a few problems. Ideally, it would play out like this:

  • I’d have lighter/shorter shorts that I don’t have to wear a belt with. I might buy a pair for running.
  • I’d have a lighter/smaller iPod. Although I’m not actually going to buy a new one when I have a perfectly-functioning one.
  • The temperature would’ve been lower than 27°C.

But, of course, I managed, and will hopefully enjoy it more in the future