So it turns out that Valentine’s Day is one of those “holidays” where bloggers are obliged to weigh in. Here is me doing something of the sort. Hey, I’m learning! But anyway, It’s V-Day today! This post isn’t really specific to it — instead, I’m going to share some of my thoughts on love and relationships.
“There is no such thing as love. It’s a fantasy.”
Summer Finn, (500) Days of Summer
Tom: “What happens when you fall in love?”
Summer: “You believe in that?”
Tom: “It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.”
(500) Days of Summer
I don’t really even know what love is, to be honest. I haven’t experienced it so far, anyway. I’m actually an emotional retard, though. The fact that I couldn’t work out why R was crying while people were saying goodbye at her farewell party (she’s going away for six years) last week, and actually had to ask, illustrates this. I can’t sympathise or empathise, I don’t show many emotions, nor do I express them. “Stoic” is potentially a great word to describe me.
I’m a bit of a love skeptic. If I’ve already met so many amazing people, why is it that I don’t love any of them? I’m assuming you’re supposed to know, rather than having to guess.
It’s always stressed that family is the most important thing. I’ve never understood why. It seems that family only like each other because they are forced to. Well, I know for a fact that my own family wouldn’t like me were I not related to them (this is assuming they like me in the first place). I’ve never been one for “family activities”, nor for interacting with them (I wouldn’t admit this in Real Life, though. Yay for my Internet anonymity?). Time spent home alone is some of the best time.
At the age of 19, I’ve never had a girlfriend. I don’t think that’s too bad — there are more guys than just me who haven’t…I think? It’s never been my main concern, as it has been with other people I know. In fact, I’m still apathetic towards dating. I’ve had a few epic crushes over the years, as well as various small ones, but have never bothered to ask anyone out (hey, it’s going to result in a rejection, so it’s a good thing I’m apathetic, I suppose?).
People consistently assume my best friend and I are dating, which I think is the sort of relationship I’d actually be happy being in — the sort where you’re each other’s best friend, not having to see or message each other every day. I don’t get close to people, emotionally. I suspect that someone wanting me to become too “emotionally intimate” would make me want to back the fuck off.
I don’t (think I) know anyone in a polyamorous relationship. I’m not sure whether many people support it, either. I use the term “polyamorous” lightly, by the way. What I actually mean is “open relationship” (polyamory implies love!). While I’m not interested in marriage or committing to one person at the moment, I’m still “traditional” enough to believe in committing to one actual partner, but I essentially support lifestyles/relationships where a couple is free to have sexual relationships with other people (as long as all parties agree, of course).